I haven't been as commited to "Ana" and "Mia" as I should have been in the last couple monthes. And I've paid for it. Although I've lost alot of weight through my meds I still feel like it's not enough. Big surprise. I'm not frustraighted about loosing weight because I know I can do it.
It's hard to explain. But here is my best shot. I'm been a dancer for a looonnnnnggggg time. And being a dancer you end up building muscel. Muscel weighs more than fat.
According to everyone, I am super skinny. I can fit into most smalls. I have no boobs. Still I weigh the disgusting amount of 130. But I seriously don't appear to weigh that much. Everybody thinks that I weigh like 100-115?
What is my flipping problem? Is it the muscel? WHAT THE CRAP??? Does anybody else have this problem?
This year has been stressfull in so many ways so I think that I have been a wimp and not cared. I don't know how, all I know is that I'm unhappy. I can't be this ugly anymore! It's tearing me appart constantly.
My body is showing signs that its loosing, but my weight is still so effing disgusting.